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HereSince1628

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5. Yes, we get caught unexpecting in such crisis because things aren't shared
Sun Oct 27, 2013, 10:44 AM
Oct 2013

One of my younger brothers committed suicide about 6 months ago. His common law spouse was located with him and so maybe could have seen some signs, but she says no. I have no reason to doubt her. So the siblings don't really know anything but we have clues to guess about...2 year unemployment following loss of job from a painful chronic health problem, reliance on opioid pain killers (and potentially an expensive addiction), multiple week long hospitalizations in his last year and pride of self dissolving into financial dependence while sitting in a recently purchased more than McMansion in a gated community outside of Myrtle Beach.

For a former financial advisor who bragged he had acquired nearly a million bucks a decade ago, downside reality could have been emotionally brutal.

He left a suicide note, it seems written to ease the pain he was about to cause his s.o., rather than to explain his motivations. Silence on the matter was his to choose, likely because he perceived it as less painful than the sharing.

I wasn't really close to him, we'd actually become somewhat prickly strangers. But his twin really had thought there was closeness in a way special to twins. Consequently, the surviving twin had many questions and a lot of discomfort about that misunderstanding, anxiety about coming up short as a brother, and what if anything that led to suicide was/is also sleeping inside him.

Half a year later the surviving twin is closing in on readjustment...at least as much as can be seen based on what he's willing to share.

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I don't think you can find a logical answer BainsBane Oct 2013 #1
Thank you for responding. Bonobo Oct 2013 #2
Terrible for all concerned intaglio Oct 2013 #3
I understand your hurt and bewilderement....Although I agree with BB regarding his inner pain, whathehell Oct 2013 #4
Yes, we get caught unexpecting in such crisis because things aren't shared HereSince1628 Oct 2013 #5
I am so sorry for your loss.. whathehell Oct 2013 #7
Thanks but really the only emotion I had was about getting him cremated HereSince1628 Oct 2013 #9
You and twin stepped up to what sounds like a real mess. No Vested Interest Oct 2013 #11
I hope the twin is getting psychological and scientific help to realize that No Vested Interest Oct 2013 #8
No, he's denying any need. HereSince1628 Oct 2013 #10
I'm sorry Bonobo libodem Oct 2013 #6
((((( Bonobo )))))) easttexaslefty Oct 2013 #12
I am so sorry. *hugs* There hardly ever seems to be a satisfactory GreenPartyVoter Oct 2013 #13
I'm having trouble with this thread. I've similar experiences and I've never figured out "Why?" hunter Oct 2013 #14
(UPDATE) Bonobo Oct 2013 #15
Again, sorry for your pain. Denninmi Oct 2013 #16
Bonobo... ScreamingMeemie Oct 2013 #18
Thank you very much. Bonobo Oct 2013 #19
There are really good days, and then there are days where I can't breathe. ScreamingMeemie Oct 2013 #21
How old was he? Any chance he had high blood pressure? TexasBushwhacker Oct 2013 #17
I am starting to wonder if SSRI's might be involved too. Bonobo Oct 2013 #20
The danger with SSRI's and bipolar is that they can increase manic episodes TexasBushwhacker Oct 2013 #22
Yes, I learned that recently. Bonobo Oct 2013 #27
Most suicide attempts of adults overwhelming correlate to failures to see a way out, not SSRIs HereSince1628 Oct 2013 #23
Typically BPD is treated with a stabilizer like lithium as well BainsBane Oct 2013 #34
(Update) He passed away this morning Bonobo Oct 2013 #24
i am so very sorry for your loss fizzgig Oct 2013 #25
I'm very very sorry. easttexaslefty Oct 2013 #26
Was he from a culture that might consider suicide the honorable thing No Vested Interest Oct 2013 #28
No. Bonobo Oct 2013 #29
I'm glad to know that. And offer you my sympathy on the loss No Vested Interest Oct 2013 #30
Very sorry to hear this Bonobo, only thing I can offer is this as someone who thinks about it... Locut0s Oct 2013 #31
Thanks, Locutus. Bonobo Oct 2013 #32
No need to thank me. Stay strong... Locut0s Oct 2013 #33
I'm sorry, Bonobo. transient Dec 2013 #35
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