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101. Thank you to everyone for your information, links

and personal experiences. Sharing them with me is such a blessing to me at this time. I didn't sleep at all last night, just laid in bed and watched the snow come down. I figure I'll take a nap later if I need it... the cats will willingly oblige me.

After reading each of your replies, I've taken to heart so many of the words you've given me. In fact, thanks to your support, I actually gave myself permission to have today be a "down day"... no big rush on anything; no excessive worrying. Just cozying up in front of my fake fireplace (electric), with my cats surrounding me and treating everyone in the house (including myself) gently. And amazingly, I don't feel guilty about doing it.

I've started on the task list... and will probably dip into Dad's footlocker to dig out Mom's paperwork that I can find. Luckily, we sold her house when she went into the Nursing home, so she'd have the money to pay for it from her own account for a little while. So at least we're not saddled with a lot of "closing" of affairs.

Thank you all for being here with me through this. Once I make the final arrangements final, I'll probably post an update on the Bereavement forum (now that I know there is one)... and I called a good friend (and former coworker) is going to help me spread the word around about Mom's death to those she used to work with up on Post. So, I guess you can say I'm making myself reach out for help, where help can be given. And I'm so thankful for it.

Again, thank you all. I always knew we were a solid group here on DU. But you've wrapped me in such good energy I can't believe how much lighter I feel today than I have over the past two days. I'm actually beginning to believe I can do this, and do it right.

Brightest Blessings to One and All....