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[Baitball Blogger]

132. Well, wow. Thank you for the affirmation, H2O!

That was my first reaction. My second was, damn, I might be right.

Yes, I do believe there are mental changes going on in their heads. To hate and be that judgmental against a race or culture and forget everything about being a good person in the universal sense, it is something that psychologists should pitch in and start telling us the truth about, because we are seeing it play out in real life.

And, I know it's a physical change because it happened to me for about 20 minutes many years ago. I don't like talking about it because it shames me, but if I'm right, then maybe someone should open the dialogue. After it happened, I thought to myself, this is how they feel all the time! Okay, let me begin by saying that it was not a big deal for anyone else, but it was for me because it was so not my personality. It just wasn't me.

It occurred maybe thirty-five years ago, where there weren't many Latinos where I lived. So, let's just say I lived in an American Anglo world and back then I was still going along with the idea of assimilation. So, one day I was out on an errand and I was driving through an outdoor shopping center. The car in front of me stopped and someone got out. That was not a big deal. What was a big deal is that the car waited for the passenger, blocking the lane. I can't remember why I couldn't get around him, but that's the scenario.

Okay, that might annoy anyone, but for me it got worse because I tied it to something I know about the Latino culture. I grew up abroad and I know they are creative drivers. And some of the things they do would not be considered safe driving by any standards, like the Puerto Rican mom who would be at the back of the car line for the child pick up at school. She had her child wait for her when he came out and position himself at the farthest end, beyond where the normal pick up areas took place. When she saw him she would then drive quickly around the other cars and he would hop in the car and they whizzed off. It was dangerous because she would drive by the other cars so fast that if any child decided to walk between the cars to get to the parking area, she would never see them.

Anyway, just know that the driving in Latin America can get pretty creative. It didn't bother me when I was single, but as a mother I definitely learned to appreciate America's strict rules on the road.

So what happened with the car that blocked me. On that day I was particularly tired and run down. So when the car blocked me my reaction was visceral. it reminded me of how the same thing would happen at the CVS in Miami Gardens when I went down to visit my parents. It was common practice back then (Police stopped it about a decade later), but the two things came together, and I swear it was like I became possessed. I could actually feel anger and hatred bristling along my spine and the thought that came to my head was, "Why don't they stay in their own country, or learn our laws!" I held onto that level of intense judgement for about five minutes and it took another 15 minutes for reason to finally calm me down. Afterward I accepted that I had overreacted, but the one thing I thought to myself, "My God, this is how racist Anglos must feel ALL the time."

So, for 20 minutes, I was fully assimilated into the conservative Anglo culture. And from that day on the social experiment was over. I began to back away from the process.

So, yes, if there are any studies in psychology that will recognize this level of physical change in a person, now is the time to let us know. Because I believe its what s happening on the Right with many people. They have yielded reason and accepted being possessed by inner demons.