As many of you know, my Mom died Friday, the 3rd of Jan.

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26. I honestly dont know how you handled

So much death in such a small time frame. My heart goes out to you. How did you manage not jumping into or out of things too soon?

I ask that as I lay awake at 1am, my mind racing. But one of those things is the realization I have nothing tying me to KS once this is done. I moved from TX originally to support my dad with his autoimmune disease. I was giving blood directly to him. Now I will have buried both him and mom. There's a sense of freedom dawning... of course no money to make anything happen... like moving to WA. But who knows? There might be ways of making some pared down dreams come true. I almost feel wrong in thinking like this, but my sis is talking about moving to OK when her kiddo moves. My brother and I have never been tight, and he already lives a couple of hours from me. He wouldn't care where I was. I'm telling myself it's not disrespectful to think like this. That it's a natural thing. But I know I have to be careful not to make changes quickly... those would probably be more just reactionary instead of reasoned.