First your mother is not dead, she lives in your memories now. All the good, bad and
all the other things that fall somewhere in between. That is her legacy and one last
gift she is leaving in your care. As long as you remember her, she lives. There is more
than enough time for mourning, it will come and go and over time fade and you will
focus on the good times that are left. As far as the funeral do not bring the cemetery
home with you. If you want to honor your mother celebrate who she was, what she
believed, how she lived her life, how she loved and showed her love. Stay strong. Be brave.
This is not about you, your family or friends or money. It is not about furniture or food
or fingernails or haircuts. It is about your mother period. The fact that you had to go thru
this pretty much alone should tell you a great deal about how they care. It is one thing
if like you they have difficulties and cannot help, it is another thing if they have the money
and can arrange the time to help and do not. You hang in there and I promise you that
you will be just fine and will come out stronger for it. We lost my wife's mother Feb 7, 2022.
My wife and I had to handle everything because nobody else could be bothered about it.
My wife could no longer stand dialysis, so she stopped taking treatments. She passed on
the sofa at 12:30 A.M Dec 28, 2022, I was the only one here when she departed. My
brother at the ripe old age of 70 died in a nursing on March 13, 2023. I do not know whether
he knew who I was or if I was just a friendly face. He lost the ability to speak and sounded
more like a man talking baby gibberish. The last spoken word he ever said to me was no.
I asked the last question I would ever ask and get a response, and no is all he said.
Covid hit, lock downs began and that was that. My point is do not let anybody make you feel
ashamed of who you are or what you have done or how you choose to live if they are not
going to suit up and show up. I am extremely sorry for your loss and believe me, I have been
around that block more times than I ever thought I would have to, and I am still and kicking.
Please take care of yourself.
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