My deepest condolences in the loss of your dear wife.
Over 30 years ago I lost a spouse. He had pneumonia, and developed sepsis. He was 38. To this day I think that his care was negligent. I did seek counsel with an attorney to file a malpractice suit. He was great, and he put quite a bit of research into the situation, but ultimately told me that it would be nearly impossible to prove in a court of law that my husband didn't receive what could be considered reasonable care. It took me a long time to accept the fact that, in my case, there wasn't anything I could do.
I'm not at all saying that you should let this go. You absolutely should not, IMO. This whole MAGAt poison that has infected some of our population makes everything so much worse. Your anger is warranted.
I hope the group is helpful for you. It took me a long, long time to settle in and accept what I couldn't change. Five months is a very short period of time. I remember that it was like there was a big dark cloud over me for quite awhile.
My heart is with you in your grief. 
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