My husband died Jan 14

[PinkTiger]

14. Update

Well, it has been interesting. On the 90-day anniversary of his funeral, we held a memorial service at his gravesite. They finally had set the stone, and his ashes were interred in the base. I have been able to go through the gamut of emotions now, and yes, I have had my moments, but i'm fine.
In fact, I'm very fine.
We had 35 years together, and I'm grateful for what we had.
And I've moved on. I've met someone special, and found myself able to respond to a new love easily. A friend told me that this was the mark of a good marriage, being able to find a new person so quickly. It was not something I sought out, but it happened. And I've been told that I glow. I do know that I'm happy. And things are going well. The children are having a hard time still with the loss of their father. But I feel good, knowing that he is not in pain anymore and that yes, I'm still alive.
The rest of my life is going well, also. Work and school (I'm a Ph.D. student,almost done!) is great. I'm writing my dissertation and another paper to present at a conference, and a paper I presented in March has been nominated for best grad student paper in my state. So, that plus the new relationship and some interesting job prospects are making my life wonderful.
Do I feel guilty? No. I'm alive.