Another dream drive-by...please forgive.

[rbnyc]

It really helps me to write and share my dreams, especially when I'm facing challenges.

I dreamed I was at an amusement park with my family. My son is 9, but I felt he was mature enough to go off on his own. I went off my my own to ride a roller coaster. My car was derailed and went into a nearby pool. There was a girl and a boy already in the pool due to another simultaneous amusement park ride accident. The girl was okay and climbed out. The boy was face down at the bottom of the pool. I thought please don't let it be my son. I dove down and lifted up his head. It was not my son. I carried him out of the pool and resuscitated him. He was okay.

He really looked like he had drown, and he had been dressed like my son. I was so relieved first that he was not my son, and then that he lived. But I had a sudden awareness that I was dreaming and that this wasn't a true picture of reality. My psyche would not be able to deal with any other outcome, so I just became aware of the dream and made it turn out okay. I felt kind of like a cheater. Now I feel a sense of danger.

I would not actually let me son go off by himself in an amusement park. He doesn't even go to the bus stop by himself across the street from our house.

But soon...

BTW, I often have nightmares about being in cars that go off roads or bridges into the water. And the challenges I am facing now are all work-life challenges. Home life is really good, and my son is doing very well.