this is a major, major eclipse

[Why Syzygy]

7. Work

I always marvel at how hard you work. Whatever it is, you get it done. Now I'm remembering a story about a little girl moving rocks. Even then, you didn't give up.

I've been on my own for awhile now. I know how hard it is. I wish I was as good at taking care of myself as you are.

Since I started meditating there have been several moments when I feel perfectly content. I relish them. Nothing about my circumstances have changed during those episodes. It's a reminder that my contentment doesn't depend on circumstances. I've started nourishing myself spiritually more often. There's nothing wrong with making needed changes. That's something else you do well, and I utterly fail. I need to daydream about "second chances". That was emphasized in a movie I watched recently. I need to give myself permission to start over.