I am so frustrated and angry...

[murielm99]

6. You would be surprised how much I do count my blessings.

Yes, it is nice to have a working bathroom. For years, we had to use an old commode and shower in the basement. Gee, at least it wasn't an outhouse.

I do know that T.V. is overrated. And I see the struggles within my own community. Right now, we are not juggling bills. But I know what it is like. I raised three kids that way, and with a husband who ruined my credit. I spent years repairing it. I still have to keep an eye peeled, to see that he does not do something stupid. As far as a roof over our heads, that was a lifelong struggle, too. Yes, my husband worked. But I bought the house. And if I had not worked and juggled those bills, we would have been homeless long ago.

I am sorry my car is not ancient enough for you. It is only fifteen years old, and has only 140,000 miles on it. We just made the fourth costly repair today - $658.00. My husband may start seeing that car payments would be about the same, or cheaper. As far as my part time job goes, it is substitute teaching. I do not get called often, at this point. If that does not change, I will look for something else, or work two part time jobs to afford the car. There are no jobs here for 64 year old women. And my husband is retired. He is not the primary bread winner. We always shared that job, if you can call what he does sharing. He is very secretive.

I should have asked for prayers and light for Wayne, instead of asking for anything to help myself find calm and peace. He is a close friend. I just found out this morning that he has stomach cancer. Please remember him. I will never again ask ASAH for anything for myself.