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vercetti2021

(10,419 posts) Wed Mar 7, 2018, 03:38 PM Mar 2018

Battle with depression [View all]

So...lately DU has been a place to escape to feel more with people with the same ideologies. So far it's been helping, but last night I had a huge fight with a close friend over a decision she made without consulting me. Needless to say, I broke down and started to tear myself down like I normally do. Not sure why I do this, maybe since my ex best friend destroyed me as a person and the feeling of self worth just went.

I've been battling depression for over a decade now, I have one suicide attempt on my belt. For the longest time I was actually okay? Sort of. I was in a mentally abusive relationship for nearly 7 years and that was difficult, but I settled obviously for what I could have and feel something. Sadly the past 4 years have completely beat the hell out of me mentally. Friends have backed stabbed me, I'm terrified of the people I do love hurting me or leaving. Guess what I am saying, my depression has hit near suicide levels again and I don't have the means of getting help since I'm uninsured.

I'm reaching out for help. Please. Holding this in isn't becoming too hard to control now.

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Battle with depression [View all] vercetti2021 Mar 2018 OP

I'm so sorry vercetti. fleur-de-lisa Mar 2018 #1

Thank you vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #4

You ARE NOT alone. Laffy Kat Mar 2018 #2

Thank you vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #5

So very important to find the best med help you can elfin Mar 2018 #9

Thank you vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #17

This message was self-deleted by its author Canoe52 Mar 2018 #3

Thank you vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #7

Low income doesn't necessarily mean a cut off from care -- however... elfin Mar 2018 #11

Not sure how it works in Texas vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #18

I googled it and there are a lot in Texas. BigmanPigman Mar 2018 #25

Thank you vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #34

This message was self-deleted by its author Canoe52 Mar 2018 #23

I don't have the patience vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #33

Have you read Trauma and Recovery? Go to a self help bookstore applegrove Mar 2018 #6

Hmm... vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #8

A bookstore that caters to hippies and self help. They probably sell chrystals too. Maybe near a applegrove Mar 2018 #13

Only place that would have that here is a store called Earthbound vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #15

Call them and ask how big their self help section is. Or maybe go to a big box store. applegrove Mar 2018 #19

I will vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #20

Then maybe AMAZON or a big box book store is a better idea. applegrove Mar 2018 #21

Barnes and Nobles perhaps? vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #22

Call the diffuser selling place and ask them if they know a self help bookstore. Come to applegrove Mar 2018 #24

Will check vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #32

oh handmade34 Mar 2018 #10

Thank you vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #16

Please get help shenmue Mar 2018 #12

I've been trying vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #14

So sorry you're experiencing this PennyK Mar 2018 #26

I don't have insurance to get medical help vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #30

I'm so glad you told us what you're going through! summer_in_TX Mar 2018 #27

I live in the panhandle vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #31

Please reach out to NAMI Sienna86 Mar 2018 #28

Nami? vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #29

National Alliance for the Mentally Ill steve2470 Mar 2018 #39

Oh vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #40

Free crisis help resources DeadLetterOffice Mar 2018 #35

Thank you vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #36

Thinking of you.🌹🌻💐🌸🌷🌹🌻💐🌸 irisblue Mar 2018 #41

Thanks for the love vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #42

a friend should be telling you truth, not messing with your mind. irisblue Mar 2018 #43

Mind games sadly vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #44

I highly recommend yoga. Hatha yoga has worked wonders for me-- diva77 Mar 2018 #37

Thank you vercetti2021 Mar 2018 #38