how is everyone doing ?

[mopinko]

13. hey there steve. i am hanging in there, but

def hanging.
kinda crummy year at the farm, and the divorce continues to drag out. he is cashing in investments, and i cant stop him. using the money, in part, to buy the affection of the kids. just took middle child on a week's vacation in seattle.
had to hire a forensic accountant to examine the financial records, which we ended up having to subpoena.
now another boodle of money to prepare interrogatories about the HUGE withdrawals. meantime, he is banging on me for a couple of $1000 cash withdrawals that he knows damn well went for legit purposes.

and he has a new girlfriend, that my daughters hooked him up with.

argh.

it has been over a year and a half in this stupid holding pattern. the big thing- i dont think i will really be able to grieve until it is done. tho the girlfriend thing helped. missed him for the first time after seeing his "flirty face" aimed at her in a fb photo. only seen his bad side in all this time, but now i remember what i am missing.
it's like there is a big boulder at the top of the hill w my name on it. just waiting for it to roll down, and know i cant do anything about it.

meds keep me from being at the bottom of the well, but sure am dangling my toes in the water.