Have you ever lived as a shut-in?

[HereSince1628]

1. In the interest of informing yourself, you might consider reading about a thing called

"learned helplessness", if you haven't read about it already.

Martin Seligman is the guy who invented the term for this several decades ago. He and others have written many books on the topic. Self-defeating personality is another name under which the topic has been discussed...

It's been discussed as a psychological syndrome, but it seems to me more a category/label for conversations about how some people react to and work around the dysfunction that comes with depression.

One of the features of depression is indeed lack of motivation. Learned helpless is basically about the phenomenon of surrendering/giving in to the illness and learning to live/'get by'.

I don't advise such reading as a hunt for a self-help guide to happiness, but rather a way to broaden your awareness of a thing related to what you seem to be talking around.

Enhanced awareness might support conversations with your therapist.