Chronic Depression

[JesterCS]

7. just hang in there

I'm 31, almost 32. I was bullied in school from grade school up til the day I graduated. Because of that I now have Social Anxiety Disorder, Depression, and I have difficulties with relationships.

Ive been there as well, contemplating suicide. Granted I don't think I'd ever actually do it, but I have points where I wonder " what if? "

I still live at home with my parents, who are very understanding of my problems. I don't work. For lack of a decent job and the fear/anxiety.

I don't know myself how I make it day to day. I thank god for friends and family. Look at the bright side, there are people who have it far worse in the world.

I find music to be a nice relaxtion/release from the Depression, at least temporarily. Though what I consider relaxing music is things like KoRn, Puscifer, A Perfect Circle, etc