Talked to my psychiatrist about school comming up...

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2. Thank you Peggy!...

Yes I have made progress. I've also lost over 40 lbs so far, more to go, and started to socialize better than before. Also set some boundaries with my parents that I hadn't in the past.

But these issues that are coming up are the big ones, the ones that have always gotten in the way of me living a real life out in the world. These are the ones that really scare me and always send me back to square one. But you are right I need to concentrate on the positive. Maybe I can draw on these successes to help me with these issues too.

You are right that I'm setting myself up for failure. That's part and parcel of my problem. A lot of perfectionism and obsessing is about the build up to events. I worry and fret over events weeks in advance and destroy my mind long before the event actually occurs, I'm very adept at it by now.

Changing universities would be very difficult though technically doable. Because the university I'm going to is so unique many of the credits don't transfer all that well to other institutions. And it's far too late to transfer this semester so I would be loosing at least a semester doing that anyway, so it's probably better to just stick this out anyway and see how it goes.