Talked to my psychiatrist about school comming up... [View all]
He basically said take this as a trial run. Get what you can out of this year and try not to be ruined if you don't pass everything. The perfectionist side of me that always has to get 90%+ in everything finds that VERY hard to do but I agree that's probably the best way to approach this. I haven't had enough time to solve my issues slowly and I don't have another alternative that's better at the moment so give this the best try I can and see how it does. But again my brain may not let me do that. My tendency is to take on the whole semester of stress all at once mentally. I get really good grades but the stress builds over time and I end up having a meltdown. I'm going to try to see if I can use exercise and some of the positives I've been working on over the summer to counter some of this. But I'm already stressed out most days 1/2 a week out, that's not a good sign.
As was also recommended by HereSince1628, thanks, he said I should get in contact with the disabilities centre on campus and see what they can do. I have an appointment with them in 2 weeks. I've also increased the dosage of risperidone that I'm taking by 2x, still very low dose though.
I doubt much can be done though as the university I am going to puts an extra emphasis on trough work and a shit load of it. They want everyone to go through the same classes as a group, no electives, and they hand out lots of group assignments. So it kind of messes things up if different people are taking different courses. They are pretty rigid I've found.
I HATE these old feelings of stress and anxiety coming back after a whole summer of such good progress. But it doesn't surprise me I knew this was going to be a giant hurdle at the end 
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