I feel like throwing my life away.

[Denninmi]

5. Yup, I agree.

My first year at MSU, in particular, was pretty miserable. I failed a class, calculus II, in my first semester, and came to realize that I was not the whiz kid I had imagined myself to be. So, I went from being pretty elated, overall, when I got there, despite the fact I was kinda freaked out by the living arrangements in the dorm, to feeling like an abject failure after my first term. I played musical majors, and ultimately graduated with a decent, not stellar, GPA, in a pretty worthless field, horticulture. I worked in the industry for about 20 years, but was never what you would call "successful" by any means, living wages but barely. I did have employer-provided BC, so that was a plus.

I think Hunter is right, do your best to hang in there, use every support system you can find, and try to make it work for you. But, if you need to take another break, don't be hard on yourself. College is easier than it was in one sense, people come and go, and get degrees piecemeal at several of institutions because of life situations and cost, and I don't think it is held against people in the job market like it once was. Look at good old Sarah Palin, she went to, I believe, four or five colleges before she finally graduated, and somehow she managed to get several jobs, and she leaves a lot to be desired, IMHO.