I feel like throwing my life away.

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Please note I don't mean suicide!

I have a long history of depression and anxiety that I have posted about here:

http://www.democraticunderground.com/1151713

Don't fell obligated to read that it just gives some history if you want to know.

Anyway I was doing well again at university up till this semester. Got a 91% GPA and got into the CO-OP program at my university. But I've changed degrees and it's a different environment with different people. The depression has returned. Old friends from last semester are not with me and it's hard to make new friends in this term when you are the new guy and everyone else has already closed ranks. I still haven't suffered academically yet much but I'm barely doing enough work to stay afloat and at this rate things will turn for the worse. The urge to quit again is so fucking strong. I just want to get some menial job and hide away from the world. I feel envious of the janitors when I walk by them at school, please note this does not mean I'm looking down on those positions, I seriously mean I envy them. I world be throwing everything away but I'm very good at that LOL. The urge to do so is very strong