My pre-medication review appointment anxiety just kicked in

[Siwsan]

I've been really looking forward to this appointment on Tuesday afternoon. Suddenly the anxiety about the unknown kicked in. I have no idea what to expect. I know she will have my therapist's notes and I've been totally forthcoming with him.

My cousin went though one of these and the 'psycho-pharmacology' specialist who talked with him REALLY pissed him off. The guy had a very confrontational approach to uncovering the causes and depth of his depression/anxiety. (My cousin had actually ended up at an in-patient treatment center. His brother had severe bi-polar depression and committed suicide.) In the end, my cousin did get the correct medications but he said it was pretty rough getting to that place. Now I kind of wish he hadn't shared that experience.

My older brother died of a drug overdose that the medical examiner classified as a suicide, I think because of the amount of drugs he took. In retrospect, I realized he needed serious help but that kind of thing was 'not done' in my family.

Hopefully my experience won't be as rough as my cousin's. I just want to be able to relax, eat, sleep and look forward without automatically anticipating bad things are going to happen.