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4. Some resources that may help you

It sounds like you are at your wit's end. It must be hard to look for help in your situation. There are some free and confidential services that may help you find a way to escape these complicated circumstances.

https://www.samhsa.gov/find-help/national-helpline

SAMHSA’s National Helpline is a free, confidential, 24/7, 365-day-a-year treatment referral and information service (in English and Spanish) for individuals and families facing mental and/or substance use disorders.

https://988lifeline.org

The 988 Lifeline provides 24/7, free and confidential support for people in distress, prevention and crisis resources for you or your loved ones, and best practices for professionals in the United States.

Call 988 if you get so low that you are contemplating harming yourself.

I hope this helps!