Soooo...I think I am depressed.

[Tobin S.]

2. It sounds like you're depressed

I'll echo what the first poster said and say that you should try to get some kind of help. I know it's tough when you don't have anything extra to begin with. You may be able to qualify for free or low cost psychological care. I know that where I live they have a clinic that charges on a sliding scale based on your ability to pay. A lot of people end up getting free services. And, as Pab said, there are cheap drugs available to treat depression.

But something has to change in your life, I think, as well as getting mental health care.

I turn 40 next month and I'm a trucker and have been for the last 16 years. I'm recently married and my wife and I were starting to get into a situation like your own after I had to make some serious career moves in order to be a family man. Last spring I came to the conclusion that something had to be done and I returned to college part time. I had a couple of years of credit from when I was younger.

Now we're getting by okay thanks to some extra money brought in from school loans. It's a short term fix, and it will only work if I graduate, but I'm betting that I'll be able to find a much better paying job when I do graduate.