I'm afraid I've become what I never wanted to be

[vercetti2021]

A grinch, a scrooge, a humbug. It's only the first of December and I'm over this holiday. First time in my life I hated decorating, I hated shopping, I hated baking, I don't enjoy being around family who spends all our get togethers on their phones, no care about the gifts received or given, no appreciation for shit. It's like my entire personality around this time of year went from super excited to dread in a year. No idea what happened to me. I'm always so excited for this time of year and this year I'm just like fuck it, hurry up and end already.