Having a hard time lately with anxiety and depression

[LiberalLoner]

11. Oh I am so sorry you were hurt that way

It is clear to me you are a gentle and caring soul, and you didn’t deserve any of that abuse.

I’ve read those of us with a history, tend to not recognize abuse when other people would. We were raised to accept abuse, basically, and not defend ourselves, and give love in return for abuse.

I think that may be what happened to you. It wasn’t your fault.

And it wasn’t my fault for not seeing things more clearly, sooner. On top of the history, I struggle with brain damage from MS, and that makes everything so much harder.

I need to forgive myself for not seeing the abuse sooner. For not understanding what was happening. I still don’t understand. But that doesn’t matter. What matters is I have walked away from the abuse and am seeking safety and healing now.

I like that idea of letting go of toxic stuff to allow good stuff into my life. I hope the good stuff, like friendship, arrives soon because I’m so lonely at the moment. I wish I had a friend, for real.