Hi Everyone. I don't usually talk about my mental health problems here but today

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is a bad day. I'm fighting with my son who is also my landlord to get over here and fix 5 or 6 little things that he's literally put off for years. I finally told him I need him to get over here and do it. He is incredibly responsive to other tenants, but when I ask he always puts it off, and today he told me I was free to move if I didn't like him as my landlord. I pay him rent. I'm not a demanding tenant. But YEARS?! He's a great landlord to everyone else and is shitty to me.

Now he's being snarky suggesting I don't care about seeing my granddaughter, but FFS, I work full-time and he was just planning to come over any have me babysit while he worked on the apartment at in the evening, without asking if I was up to watching her. I just want to be asked if I have the bandwidth to babysit instead of him assuming I'm in a mental state to do so.

We have a strained relationship due to the fact that I had him when I was 17. I was traumatized by getting pregnant, marrying my high school sweetheart (who turned into an abusive alcoholic), and moving from the 'burbs I was raised in to the projects. We moved a lot and I wasn't the best mother, but I was in no way the worst. I moved away for grad school when he was 19 but he views it as I abandoned him when he was a child. Meanwhile, when he was little, his father was murdered by my ex-SIL's husband, but he is absolutely devoted to said ex-SIL.

I also have PTSD from working Hurricane Katrina recovery for two years. And I am among all of us who have trauma around the past... six years, living under 45, the pandemic, and the ongoing existentialist dread around climate change.

I'm afraid he'll deny me seeing my grandchildren. I'm afraid he'll evict me if I don't pay rent to force him to do the work (we don't have a written lease). I have moved over 65 times in my 58 years and do not want to move again. Today is just a hard day for me.