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OldBaldy1701E

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18. My life was based on creativity. Now, it just reminds me of my failure.

Sat Oct 22, 2022, 09:46 PM

Oct 2022

Forty-four years as an actor/singer/musician/writer/director/producer/etc. I cannot even pick up my guitar anymore. I just sit here looking at it. It just reminds me that I am done. My voice is gone. I can barely sing one song any more. I used to sing for hours without losing any of it. I have a library of my own music. What did it get me? Besides a collection of music no one seems to like? It doesn't matter. None of it does.

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The economy under Biden will keep improving for the working and applegrove Oct 2022 #1

I am a baby boomer. OldBaldy1701E Oct 2022 #3

I've been on an SSRI since I had my life destroyed, again and again, by bad people. applegrove Oct 2022 #10

Tried Paxil, Effexor, Wellbutrin... OldBaldy1701E Oct 2022 #20

Sounds like you might do well in an assisted living situation. People help you and you Maraya1969 Oct 2022 #35

Thank you. OldBaldy1701E Oct 2022 #37

What triggered this today? BigmanPigman Oct 2022 #2

One can only delude oneself for so long. (n/t) OldBaldy1701E Oct 2022 #4

Maybe that's why you need someone's input BigmanPigman Oct 2022 #6

Hon, I'm sorry, but these thought are the self-delusion wryter2000 Oct 2022 #34

Thanks for the reply. OldBaldy1701E Oct 2022 #36

I call this meta-thinking. Instead of focusing on tasks and goals in Gaugamela Oct 2022 #5

You have given me a good chuckle. OldBaldy1701E Oct 2022 #12

I was too nice. I started worrying about myself more, turns out that involved criticizing myself applegrove Oct 2022 #22

Finding Motivation is Difficult for me too Nictuku Oct 2022 #7

Good luck. OldBaldy1701E Oct 2022 #8

I want to hear your results I_UndergroundPanther Oct 2022 #9

A friend of mine was going to give me some Nictuku Oct 2022 #11

A word of advice. OldBaldy1701E Oct 2022 #14

Thank you for caring Nictuku Oct 2022 #17

I bet that was fun. OldBaldy1701E Oct 2022 #23

Same here I really need I_UndergroundPanther Oct 2022 #28

True Wicked Blue Oct 2022 #31

This message was self-deleted by its author cbabe Oct 2022 #13

My life was based on creativity. Now, it just reminds me of my failure. OldBaldy1701E Oct 2022 #18

This message was self-deleted by its author cbabe Oct 2022 #24

Heh, if my music is 'discovered' years from now it will have no bearing on me. OldBaldy1701E Oct 2022 #27

I'd be very interested in stories of directing Tetrachloride Oct 2022 #32

Or do something the opposite of creative: do something perceptive. applegrove Oct 2022 #19

We've all road this roller coaster of life... Bluethroughu Oct 2022 #15

Sharing is the soul. You are sharing and getting a response. cachukis Oct 2022 #16

I've read and re-read and re-read your message... Tolerant1 Oct 2022 #21

I am glad you are able to do this. OldBaldy1701E Oct 2022 #25

A few years ago, I had a GP throw anti-depressants at me... Tolerant1 Oct 2022 #29

I get to feeling that way sometimes. TigressDem Oct 2022 #26

I find good movies on Netflix or at the library Tetrachloride Oct 2022 #30

I'm not bullshitting when I say, I've been there Bayard Oct 2022 #33

That is what saved Mickey Rourke BigmanPigman Oct 2022 #38

I wish I could but the guy that owns the place doesn't want another pet here. OldBaldy1701E Oct 2022 #39

I'm sorry to hear that Bayard Oct 2022 #41

Thank you all for the kind words. OldBaldy1701E Oct 2022 #40

Your original post could have been written by my husband, and I sympathize with you. flor-de-jasmim Oct 2022 #42

Thanks for the kind words. (n/t) OldBaldy1701E Oct 2022 #43

How about getting more involved with posting positive things on DU? KS Toronado Oct 2022 #44

Thanks for the suggestion. OldBaldy1701E Oct 2022 #45