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In reply to the discussion: Got some good news today! Equals Glamrock's a piece of shit. [View all]3Hotdogs
(13,784 posts)The decision to move her to memory care was when the tenant answered his doorbell and found her in the driveway, 4 a.m. on a cold March morning.
She had her house key in her hand and didn't know how to use it to get back into her apartment. She lasted 9 years in memory care before she died. For 9 years, I visited her to make sure she was well treated and I took care of renting out two apartments.
Yes, I also felt like shit at times and at other times, I knew it was for the best -- especially when I would see "Silver Alert" signs with license plate numbers. I also recall our neighbor, I was about 19 years old and he was in his 60's. He was never "right" and things deteriorated. One day, he disappeared. He was found 2 weeks later, face down in the stream about 1/8 mile from our house.
So yes. You will feel good about doing what you know, needs to be done and you will feel like shit from time to time, doing it. It is natural for us. I was an only child so it was all on me.
So, the thing is to get clear on what you can do for her, emotionally and physically during her remaining time. Do as much of that as you can without sacrificing quality of your life and your significant others. The goal is to be able to look back after she is gone and be able to tell yourself that you did the best you could within the parameters of your current life's situation.
YOU ARE NOT REQUIRED TO SACRIFICE YOUR LIFE FOR HER AT THIS TIME. But do for her all that you know is right.
Subtopic. Should the time come if/when you are in such a situation, I hope you will find a less violent way of ending your life. Do you live in a state with assisted suicide? Investigate the book, "Final Exit."
I hope this all helps.
3H