checking myself in today [View all]
I'm checking myself into the psych hospital today. I need a safe place. Too hard to contain any longer the trauma of giving up my cats five years ago, and how I had to do it.
Cats? Pathetic. But I can't dismiss as pathetic something that's killing me.
I was in a psych hospital 35 years ago, at age 23. I expect some things to be different, but I wish I knew what those would be.
I'm nervous, scared, excited, anxious, apprehensive, terrified.
I want one specific thing to happen there today. I desperately want to be given a private room. My time there will be a lot easier if I don't have to contend with a stranger in close quarters. Trying not to get my hopes up, though.
I wonder: as in 1986, will they take away my belt and shoelaces? . . . pfft. Of course they will.
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