Serious anxiety this morning.

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24. I am similar

I have terrible anxiety and panic attacks also a number of medical conditions like anemia. All of which contributed to the other failure of a medication that was working fairly successfully for 21 years since then I have been put on so many different medications and all of them have failed leaving me with almost nothing.
I have now become almost non-functional I rarely leave the house except for doctor's appointments counselling seems to be ineffective things like meditation and breathing don't work during panic attacks for me.
All this began starting in January of 2019 with the death of my mother to last year's covid crap.
Life has been one long nervous breakdown since at least June of last year when one of my friends at 40 years died triggered this whole thing. I seem to be unable to take any medications without side effects that are horrible they even tried to put me on my old medication and it didn't
Work.
I've been in the hospital at least five times since last June when before I'd stayed out of the hospital since the year 2003.
Often times I wish I just wouldn't wake up
I'm 62 and I really feel I've reached the end of the line.
I honestly believe I've run out of options.