Fucking rumination

[I_UndergroundPanther]

I wrote about the communication issue I am having with an ex freind.

https://www.democraticunderground.com/115110702

I thought and looked at the replies and thought
y'all are right time to cut this person off. Made my decision..

But I can't stop ruminating over it. My PTSD is intrusive as fuck.

I roll it over in my head what I should have said or done. It's like I hear her.

I wonder if I am the asshole causing this problem. The anxiety sucks . Doesn't help I am alone 24-7 either.

I just wish the rumination shit would stop.

I don't want to think about it anymore and nothing I ruminate over is going to change the decision to let her go.

Shit. PTSD sucks.