How is everyone today?

[I_UndergroundPanther]

2. Having a bit of weirdness

Lately when I wake up and begin the day I have strange thoughts. Saw a big white trailer outside my building and thought it was full of dead people.

I sat on my bed and watched it from my window. With all sorts of thoughts and feelings rumbling through. I just wanted my mom back. I felt awful.

Than I saw people drive a lawnmower out and down a ramp and I realized it was the guys who do the lawn out here.

An ambulance took a person from my building away. That was last week. In my county exactly where I live has the highest count of CV patients in my county. My county had the first death in Maryland.

It's been wearing on me.

Tomorrow I have an SSI
in person recertificationn scheduled. I tried calling the SS office earlier last week no one answered. I am very anxious about it. My counselor said they'd call me tomorrow and the anxiety I may miss the call is going to drive me nuts all day. I don't know what to do about the appointment. I'll try calling them in the morning at 8 or 9 am. Trump wants to fuck over people on disability I hope my SSI isn't fucked up from the quarentine.
You know those republican assholes want to fuck up the lives of disabled people.

Sometimes I wish I could sleep and wake up when it's over. If it ever ends.