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TommyCelt

(855 posts)
3. 11 years sober,
Thu Oct 18, 2012, 09:11 AM
Oct 2012

My drug of choice is alcohol, and I still crave sometimes. And that's OK, because drinking alcohol is what an alcoholic does...I'm GOOD at it. This last year has been one of my most difficult as far as cravings go, and there's no rhyme or reason to it. Things are GOOD, and my alcoholic nature tells me I ought to be celebrating. The difference is that I am aware of the nature of the beast, I'm able to think it through, past the warm glow of the first few gulps, the pleasant buzz, and know where it will eventually take me; puking blood, with no job, conferring with a divorce attorney...and worse.

I know my beast. I don't think about a nice cold beer on a hot day. I think about being trashed, obliterated, drunk beyond speech. I know I'm an alcoholic; even after 11+ years, I know that I still will never be able to drink safely.

So I don't try. Simple.

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