Boy, I tell you...

[OldBaldy1701E]

The complete lack of understanding as to the complete lack of help available for those who are not walking around with money falling out of their pockets is astounding to myself.

It is either malice or ignorance. The main problem I see is that I see way more malice than ignorance.

This is all by design. They want us to die.

So, I should just obey and end it all? I mean, that sure seems to be the outcome of things as they stand. I damn sure am not going to just lay around in agony and mental crisis while the evil in this country just keeps on being evil. Or, should I?

I was not raised to sit and do nothing. Where I am from, that is how you end up dead. Food does not miraculously appear on your table, you go out and raise it, tend it, and harvest it. Your house does not magically repair itself. You go out, find the materials and you fix it. Or, if you can, pay someone to fix it.

Yet, I am supposed to just sit here and watch everything collapse while I scream from being unable to find help because it falls into that category of 'guaranteed money because everyone needs healthcare' level of greed that should have been regulated out of existence decades ago? It is mind-boggling to me.

I apologize for always dumping on this forum, but there is no one else. I moved to a state where the norm is 'don't interact with anyone unless you absolutely have to, then finish it as fast as you can and run away'. (A gentleman who is also not from here once said the best descriptive statement I have yet to hear about the people of this state. "They will give you directions to anywhere, except their house." It has proven to be completely true.) I am glad it works for them. I find it rude as hell. I am getting close to my wits end on so many things. And, no one can do anything except pat me on the head and pitifully tut.

Great. Just what I needed.

Again I am sorry.

[LiberalLoner]

1. I am so sorry for what you are going through. If you were my neighbor, I would make you some tea and cookies

And definitely give you guys our address.

I know they want all of us dead, but I am glad you are still here.

Hey, I found a bunch of YouTube videos this week, walking tours and lectures etc., set at the great art museums of the world.

And I realized, no matter where I move to, as long as the internet works, I can spend some time looking at beautiful art, any time I want.

It’s a nice break from the bad stuff.

💙💙💙

[MerrilyMerrily]

2. I was born and raised in the state you keep insulting

I do admit that if a stranger asked me for directions to my house, I would find a Minnesota-nice way to avoid that.

This is also not the first time you have insulted the people who take the time to offer sympathy or helpful suggestions. Relax, I won't.

Minnesota is not a state that offers no help to the poor, and it is DEFINITELY not a state where people avoid engaging with other people on a friendly basis. As a shy person, I sometimes found the degree of friendliness a little much.

Of course, I have observed Minnesotans back slowly away from interactions that get, um, fraught for no good reason. Even the nicest places have a non-zero percentage of bullies and manipulators, and no sensible person wants to get tangled up with them.

[OldBaldy1701E]

3. Ahh, so I am a bully and a manipulator. Got it. (n/t)

[crosinski]

4. I'm sorry, I know you're in a hard place.

In most places in America, there are no resources for people who fall between the strings of the net. I think this is horrible, especially when we see other countries taking care of their citizens. My heart breaks for you.

[OldBaldy1701E]

5. But, there is no 'net'.

There is a thin, cheap length of single-ply toilet paper and it is already wet. The fact that anyone can get any help from them is all but a miracle.

This state has done what it can. I am glad they did so. But, this should now be in the hands of the federal government. They are the ones I paid into for decades to insure that I would have some help once I got to this point. They are the ones who certainly knew my name when it was time for them to receive from me, but have no idea who I am now that I am needing the reverse. I will never forget the look on the lady's face when she told me that the only thing that mattered was if I had been working in the last ten years. Well, it has been fifteen years since I held a 'normal' job. But, I have been working since I was twelve years old. However, nothing I have done matters unless it was in the last ten years. Which means, nothing I have ever done matters. I think she could see the complete disbelief on my face. I think she could also see the rage building, because she cut the whole thing off right after that as if I was not worth any further discussion.

I don't know about you people, but this is NOT what I paid for, NOT what I voted for, and NOT what I envisioned at all. Which is why I am so disillusioned with the entire thing now. The fact that enough people in this nation seem to be okay with this arrangement is more than enough to make me want to run out in traffic.

I used to be the one who ran towards the accident. I used to be the one who tried to help people when they seemed like they needed it. Our society crushed that gene in me. (It wasn't the only part of me that has been destroyed by our society and how it operates. But that is another story for another time.)

Thank you for your kind words. They mean a lot.